Imagine This

My facebook thought for the day was this: Victory eludes me. It's exhausting.

Imagine being stuck in your own head over something for close to 18 years. No matter what you do it doesn't change. No matter how you plead with God, nothing happens. Everyone around you gets victory, yet there you are with no end in sight.

You're being obedient, following what God wants you to do and sacrificing. And victory remains a mystery.

It's exhausting, defeating, and utterly frustrating. Despair comes to my mind.